I missed a few days writing. Wednesday night I did not take any Trazodone. I figured that 12.5mg didn’t help and 6mg didn’t help, so what difference would it make if I didn’t take any? Well, Wednesday night I slept from about 9:30pm – 11:00pm and I was awake the entire rest of the night. I tried watching tv, playing solitaire on my phone, reading the news on my phone, listening to sleep music, jesse laid by me for a while, I cried, nothing helped. I held out hope that I would fall back asleep around 4:30am as I had been doing for a while. Around 5am I gave up and went to the bed to at least lay by Jesse for a while before I had to get up, but nothing helped. I didn’t get any sleep. I didn’t actually feel all that tired on Thursday, but I did feel like a crabby monster and virtually everything made me feel like the world was ending and I wanted to cry. I also felt really nauseous several times at work. Later in the day I started to get the pains in my legs that I get when I don’t sleep. I resigned myself to going back on Trazodone and took 50mg that night. I fell asleep just before 9pm and slept all night until 6am. I got up once or twice to pee but fell right back asleep. Friday and Saturday nights we were up at the cabin. I initially took 50mg Friday night but had trouble falling asleep because I wasn’t able to read or anything before I laid down so I got up and took another 25mg. I slept almost 12 hours. It was divine. Saturday night I went back to 50mg and slept 10 hours. Also divine. Sunday night I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to sleep because I ordered a big root beer float at dinner, not realizing that it had caffeine in it and also because I slept so much on the weekend. I fell asleep reading. Woke up once to pee and went right back to sleep. Slept til alarm went off at 6am. Tomorrow we will see the doctor to find out if I can take these pills while pregnant. I think I could live with taking just 25mg if I got pregnant because I can usually get a few good nights of sleep each week with that, but anything less than that is unbearable. I have no idea what I will do if he says I won’t be able to take these pills because I just plain can’t sleep without them and I can’t live without sleep. I don’t know if it is “rebound” insomnia and would go away in a few weeks, but I doubt it, because I was off them for a few weeks late last summer and the insomnia never went away no matter what I did or what other kind of other medication I took. Also, it’s not as though I ever have a few weeks to put my life on hold and stop functioning while I don’t sleep at all just to see if it gets better.