Wednesday. I was really tired yesterday but I worked out after work and tried to be productive. I made the pineapple/jicama salad that I wanted to make and watched some TV with Jesse. I went to bed around 9:30pm and played games on my phone til I fell asleep. I just finished the book I was reading and I always find it hard to start a new book after finishing one that I like, so I didn’t want to read. I slept from about 10:00pm – 10:40, then I woke up in a panic again. Fortunately at least I wasn’t drenched in sweat because I slept in a tshirt instead of a sweatshirt, only used one blanket, and unplugged my heated mattress pad, but I still just felt like I had to get out that room when I woke up and go do something else to relax. So I woke Jesse up on the couch and he went to bed and I watched Seinfeld and played more games on phone for about an hour until I turned everything off about midnight and then I slept til 5:55am. It wasn’t as easy to relax again as it was the night before. This weekend we are going to buy a TV for the bedroom so hopefully can watch tv to relax in there. I feel tired, crabby, and discouraged. It is going better than it did last fall when I tried this, and sleeping 6 hours a night is a lot better than the 1-2 hours I was getting last fall, but this is really hard. It took me 3 months to be able to sleep normal again when I went from 15 – 10mg of Celexa, and I guess now I can probably expect it to take that long going from 10mg to 5mg. After that I’ll have to go from 5mg to 0mg, and then start working on the trazodone. At this rate I don’t think we’ll be able to try for a baby until I hit menopause :-(