Well it’s Monday. I slept well Saturday night but last night was a total bust. I woke up around 11:30pm to pee and Jesse was snoring really loud and I couldn’t go back to sleep. I laid there for what later turned out to be 3 hours (I didn’t check the time until I finally gave in and went out to the living room). Several times I was overcome by feelings of anxiety, like adrenaline washing over me like the feeling I get when I realize I didn’t see a cop sitting there and I was speeding. I started obsessing again about how am I ever going to sleep when we have kids and I can’t sleep with ear plugs and Jesse is still snoring like that. I kept laying awake waiting for him to start snoring again. I wanted to read but I didn’t want to turn on the light and wake him up and I wanted to try listening to my sleep music but I also didn’t want to wake him up and was afraid to take out my earplugs to hear the music because then I would hear the snoring more. Eventually I got up and went to the couch and started crying, then I read for a while. Last time I looked at the clock it was a little after 3:00am. Needless to say I was very tired when my alarm went off at 5:55am.