Wednesday. Yesterday was a stressful day. This stuff at work about the budget bill is really weighing me down. Everyone talks about it non-stop at work. I went to a protest yesterday. Got in a Facebook argument about it with someone about it. Jesse and I argued about it when I got home. I didn’t sleep well because I couldn’t stop thinking about it. I feel like a cloud has been hanging over me since last Friday when this was all announced. I was in a bad mood although Jesse tried to cheer me up by watching a movie with me. I tried to go to bed around 9:30. I read til I got drowsy but when I put my book down I couldn’t fall asleep. Laid there til about 11pm when Jesse traded me the couch for the bedroom and I tried to sleep on the couch. Still couldn’t fall asleep. Read for a little while and as soon as I tried to read I got tired again so I turned the light off and tried to sleep but all the thoughts about the budget stuff came back. Tried to read some more and was able to fall asleep after getting more drowsy after reading a few pages. But I had to make a conscious effort to stop thinking about it. Started naming things in my head to be thankful for. I had kind of a fitful sleep, woke up several times, not to pee or anything. I did feel in somewhat of a better mood when I woke up those times than I did when I was first trying to fall asleep. Made up my mind not to spend the day thinking about all of this, but of course we had a meeting at 8am today for an hour to talk about the all the changes that are/could be coming, with people going on about how next year, next budget, whatever we should expect pay cuts, etc. What the F do I work here for anyway? Now I’m probably going to have to look for a new job, because I know I am not to be happy working at a place where I know I’ll never get ahead no matter how hard I work. I am just so disappointed in all of this when I finally got a job that I like better and can be happy with. I am kind of holding back tears at my desk now.