Well it’s Wednesday. I went to bed last night about 10pm and read until I fell asleep. I must have fallen asleep reading since when I woke up to pee at 2:30am my glasses were still on. I felt really tired when I woke up and was thinking great, I should be able to go right back to sleep but when I went back to bed after going to the bathroom I never fell back asleep. I laid there for about an hour and then I got up and went out to the couch. I couldn’t fall back asleep there either. After a little while I tried reading but that didn’t really make me tired either. I did close my eyes for a little while but at about 5am I just got up and got ready for work.

I don’t know why I can’t fall back asleep. That’s two nights in a row. I wasn’t thinking stressful thoughts or anything. When I laid back down last night just random thoughts kept popping into my head, about the book I am reading or about the vacation I’m planning or just about whatever random thing. I wasn’t thinking negative thoughts or obsessing about any one particular thing. I did feel upset when I was getting ready for work because I am afraid of going down the same path as last fall when I didn’t sleep hardly at all for like 6 weeks. It might have been a month. Or two. I don’t remember because it felt like ETERNITY. I need to read that book about insomnia and find some techniques to shut my mind off and fall asleep. I try things like thinking of positive thoughts and things I am thankful for, which helps me not be negative about not falling asleep, but it doesn’t make me fall asleep.  

This makes three nights in a row I have not slept enough. I haven’t even really felt that tired in the morning. I felt better this morning than yesterday morning because I didn’t fall back asleep. I feel worse when I fall back asleep like 45 minutes before I have to get up and am then sound asleep when my alarm goes off. I don’t know how many more nights I can make it like this before feeling really tired though.

I have noticed that last night and Sunday night I wasn’t really tired when I initially went to bed. Sunday I had trouble falling asleep but when I fell asleep I stayed asleep. Last night I fell asleep reading but then had trouble staying asleep. I don’t know why I couldn’t stay asleep on Monday night because I was exhausted from working out when I went to bed. I thought maybe it was the workout or the prenatal vitamin that kept me from sleeping the whole night through but I didn’t work out or take the vitamin last night.

So, as far as getting off the celexa goes, when I was on 20mg I almost never had any trouble sleeping. For the month I was on 15 mg (January) I did not have any trouble sleeping. Since reducing to 10mg on 2/1/11 I have had significant trouble sleeping 6 out of 29 nights. I still have not made any changes to the Trazodone or Benadryl.

Also, I have noticed that I only have trouble sleeping on work nights. I have not had any problems sleeping on the weekends.